Life as we now know it...

Cait absolutely loves this place. The playdates there are great cause she can run and bounce all she wants. The slide was a huge hit this time.

I was ready to give up for a while. COuldn't put any titles on the posts. What a bunch of crap that was.

Today was amazing. Kayaking for hours, quality entertainment with friends and a beautiful day. My upper body is absolutely dead right now so I am positive it will be painful in the morning.

I really miss outings like todays. I used to go on them weekly when I lived in Florida. When I moved up here I lost so much of myself. Turned into a person I didn't/don't even like. It is time for me to get back to who I really am. All of this change is within reason though -- no more extreme sports or doing anything without thinking since I have Cait to consider.

I am really starting to feel alive again.

Waking up in the morning!

Damn blogger. It wont allow me to add titles to my posts right now.

So it is now the 4th of July and I officially suck. I haven't been blogging in quite some time but a dear friend reminded me of this and sooooo here I am. It is Wednesday night and the 4th... went to the neighbors house on the corner and now I am drunk. Damn bottle of wine. My ass is kicked. At least it settled my stomach... you are thinking this girl is messed up. YOU HAVE NO CLUE!!! haha. Ahhh, remembering the days where I would do a shot of 151 before really drinking to get the stomach settled in for the night... I will never get to that stage again but damn... I feel pretty good right now. Please excuse if this is just rambling on and on. If you don't like it then kiss my ass. :-) HA! Take that.

Hey, I just noticed spell check on here. You should be thankful for that. My typing sucks the big one. I wonder if anyone acutally reads this? Most likely not so I will keep chatting to myself.

Marco just popped online -- I wonder how he is doing in Acapulco. Lets go and ask him!!! Ahhh, he is going to answer me. I bet the suspense is building inside to see what he says! Funny that he calls me Valeria! Cracking me up right now. Bet you are wondering who Marco is... well, I have "known" him for 6 years now. Really cool guy. He told me how to say very drunk in espanol - bien borracha!!! :-)

What else? Well, I have to pee really, really bad but no desire to get up and go! I am in a funky fun mood. Listening to all the fireworks outside. Wondering where all my friends are and why they are not chatting with me. Bern offered for me to come down and go swimming -- prolly not a great idea. She would get me drinking even more. Gotta love the Irish!!

Tomorrow is going to suck at work. I wish I could explain but it is a waste of my time to do so. To my BF ladies - no more gmail using working hours. Would love to throw in another kiss my fine ass there as well. :-)

My girl Susan is down in NC right now. Hope she is having a marvelous trip! Call me when you get back. Can't wait for our next date night.

Ahhh, I need food!!! Might be back. Might not.

For the past 2 months I have been preoccupied mentally and slacking on some of the things I used to love to do. Over the past 4 days I have had time to reflect and contemplate what is truly going on in my life. I am at a cross road and terrified of any direction that I may take.

Each day has a new beginning. No two days are ever alike and it is all up to me to choose my destiny. The hard part about all of this is that my choices now affect my daughters life. It isn't 'just me' anymore. All of those years of doing everything on a whim has since passed. Each move has to be planned and well calculated.

I am typically a very happy-go-lucky person that doesn't stress about much in life. That all changed when I had Cait and it got turned up a notch a few months ago. I found myself becoming dependant and emotional. Yes, I finally have real emotion again. This is a good thing. I know what I want out of life -- happiness. It will be a challenge to acheive it but it is a challenge that I will easily accept and forge forward. Who is along for this ride in Life with me??