Lately

For the past 2 months I have been preoccupied mentally and slacking on some of the things I used to love to do. Over the past 4 days I have had time to reflect and contemplate what is truly going on in my life. I am at a cross road and terrified of any direction that I may take.

Each day has a new beginning. No two days are ever alike and it is all up to me to choose my destiny. The hard part about all of this is that my choices now affect my daughters life. It isn't 'just me' anymore. All of those years of doing everything on a whim has since passed. Each move has to be planned and well calculated.

I am typically a very happy-go-lucky person that doesn't stress about much in life. That all changed when I had Cait and it got turned up a notch a few months ago. I found myself becoming dependant and emotional. Yes, I finally have real emotion again. This is a good thing. I know what I want out of life -- happiness. It will be a challenge to acheive it but it is a challenge that I will easily accept and forge forward. Who is along for this ride in Life with me??

4 comments:

Lora said...

I'm in. I've been thinking about you and Cait a ton lately. I miss you guys. My life is a little chaotic right now too. Fun, isn't it?

Let's talk.

susan said...

I call shot-gun! Let's take convertible so we can feel the wind rush through out hair as we ride along. I've got an intense need to pretend like I'm young and care-free again...

Valerie said...

let's get together!!

Sarah's Mommy said...

My hair gets really tangled in a convertible -- so I'll have to buy one of those 50s scarfs to cover it!

Knowing where you want to go is the first step to getting there!

Hugs!