Lately

For the past 2 months I have been preoccupied mentally and slacking on some of the things I used to love to do. Over the past 4 days I have had time to reflect and contemplate what is truly going on in my life. I am at a cross road and terrified of any direction that I may take.

Each day has a new beginning. No two days are ever alike and it is all up to me to choose my destiny. The hard part about all of this is that my choices now affect my daughters life. It isn't 'just me' anymore. All of those years of doing everything on a whim has since passed. Each move has to be planned and well calculated.

I am typically a very happy-go-lucky person that doesn't stress about much in life. That all changed when I had Cait and it got turned up a notch a few months ago. I found myself becoming dependant and emotional. Yes, I finally have real emotion again. This is a good thing. I know what I want out of life -- happiness. It will be a challenge to acheive it but it is a challenge that I will easily accept and forge forward. Who is along for this ride in Life with me??