Life as we now know it...

So it is now the 4th of July and I officially suck. I haven't been blogging in quite some time but a dear friend reminded me of this and sooooo here I am. It is Wednesday night and the 4th... went to the neighbors house on the corner and now I am drunk. Damn bottle of wine. My ass is kicked. At least it settled my stomach... you are thinking this girl is messed up. YOU HAVE NO CLUE!!! haha. Ahhh, remembering the days where I would do a shot of 151 before really drinking to get the stomach settled in for the night... I will never get to that stage again but damn... I feel pretty good right now. Please excuse if this is just rambling on and on. If you don't like it then kiss my ass. :-) HA! Take that.

Hey, I just noticed spell check on here. You should be thankful for that. My typing sucks the big one. I wonder if anyone acutally reads this? Most likely not so I will keep chatting to myself.

Marco just popped online -- I wonder how he is doing in Acapulco. Lets go and ask him!!! Ahhh, he is going to answer me. I bet the suspense is building inside to see what he says! Funny that he calls me Valeria! Cracking me up right now. Bet you are wondering who Marco is... well, I have "known" him for 6 years now. Really cool guy. He told me how to say very drunk in espanol - bien borracha!!! :-)

What else? Well, I have to pee really, really bad but no desire to get up and go! I am in a funky fun mood. Listening to all the fireworks outside. Wondering where all my friends are and why they are not chatting with me. Bern offered for me to come down and go swimming -- prolly not a great idea. She would get me drinking even more. Gotta love the Irish!!

Tomorrow is going to suck at work. I wish I could explain but it is a waste of my time to do so. To my BF ladies - no more gmail using working hours. Would love to throw in another kiss my fine ass there as well. :-)

My girl Susan is down in NC right now. Hope she is having a marvelous trip! Call me when you get back. Can't wait for our next date night.

Ahhh, I need food!!! Might be back. Might not.

For the past 2 months I have been preoccupied mentally and slacking on some of the things I used to love to do. Over the past 4 days I have had time to reflect and contemplate what is truly going on in my life. I am at a cross road and terrified of any direction that I may take.

Each day has a new beginning. No two days are ever alike and it is all up to me to choose my destiny. The hard part about all of this is that my choices now affect my daughters life. It isn't 'just me' anymore. All of those years of doing everything on a whim has since passed. Each move has to be planned and well calculated.

I am typically a very happy-go-lucky person that doesn't stress about much in life. That all changed when I had Cait and it got turned up a notch a few months ago. I found myself becoming dependant and emotional. Yes, I finally have real emotion again. This is a good thing. I know what I want out of life -- happiness. It will be a challenge to acheive it but it is a challenge that I will easily accept and forge forward. Who is along for this ride in Life with me??

Remember to check the actual post a few down.

This is for thsoe of you who don't have myspace...

Have I told you all that I love you lately? I think I have been slacking in that area. Yes, I have been a bit self absorbed lately. So trying to make it up to you I have uploaded some new pictures and check out the killer playlist I created. Some of you may not appreciate it and you can happily listen to music elsewhere. That is my polite way of saying Kiss my ass. :-)

What a week!!!! Work is crazy this week. I am not a fan of meetings and I am booked till Friday. Definitely time for a drink. Too bad this house is dry. Oh wait there are a few bottle of wine and a very old bottle of bubbly... maybe if I wasn't so damn lazy I would go open one.

Last Friday night a good friends took me out for dinner and a movie as a belated birthday gift. It was a wonderful night. We met in KOP at the theater and walked over to Bahama Breeze for dinner. Well, on the way over there while walking on the sidewalk an SUV cop car came inches from backing me over -- Yes, I wrote while we were on the SIDEWALK. Susan had never seen me jump so fast. So, we cautiously walk over to Bahama Breeze and head for the bar. It was our first time at a bar together and my first time in years! Hers too. She proceeds to spill her drink while sitting there so there was a bright green mess all over the bar. We laughed for a bit about that. More drinks were ordered. We finally got a table.

I must have the smallest bladder and had to pee. Located the restroom and took care of business. Like any good girl I washed my hands. When I pushed the pump for the soap to come out I noticed that it looked funny... all watery. I freaked out a bit not knowing what had just landed on my hand. THERE WAS A MOUTHWASH DISPENSER ON THE WALL!!! Who in the hell mounts a bottle that looks like soap of mouthwash on the wall of a restroom?!?! I walk out of there as fast as I could cause I felt like such an ass! Got back to the table and let Susan know of my bathroom escapades. She later saw for herself.

As usual we had great conversation during dinner. It was very personal so that shall be left out of this!

We stumble over the the movies and watch In The Land of Women. I was pretty sure this movine would suck but it was actually decent. So glad I saw it. After all the cuddling in the theater we walked to the car and said our good bye's. I have to admit that she was the perfect date. ;-) Haha, I bet I caught you on the cuddling part!!! We didn't.